PLEASE ANSWER

So.. I really like opening my heart here on the drarry tag cause I feel like you guys understand me! It feels like being hugged but thousand friends..

I invited this guy for a festival my school was hosting, I paid his ticket, and I asked him to go there, to see me so we could spend more time together. The thing is that he already had other plans with this best friend, which he didn’t go out with since December.. their plan didn’t work out very well so they decided to come to my school festival together! Of course I thought he would ignore me in order to be with his friend but what happens is that he COMPLETELY IGNORED ME! We said hi, he kissed me briefly on the lips, took his ticket and it was like I wasn’t there anymore! I know he missed his fucking stupid idiot friend but I missed him! I really liked him but we only saw each other once a week, when it happened, cause he always had something to do on the weekends! I didn’t get upset at first, but as the time passed I started to feel sad, cause I tried to be closer to him, but he only paid attention to the friend! I tried to talk to the friend and he answered me nicely, but my guy didn’t even look at my face! It was really uncomfortable and I felt like a third wheel! And there was this one time I was next to him and he changed places with the friend! EVERYONE saw it! ALL MY FRIENDS, and they all said it looked like he didn’t like me anymore, that he didn’t want to stay with me and that I should just give up and find someone who really liked me and treated me well.. I got REALLY UPSET and was so confused, that when the festival was over and he came to say goodbye, he holded me - AND OH GODS THE WAY HE SMELLED, AND HIS FACE, HIS SMILE, EVERYTHING - and tried to kiss me but for Merlin’s sake I was about to cry cause I thought he didn’t want me! And if he did, why did he ignore me all the day? He could have at least tried to answer me when I tried to make conversation! So he tried to kiss me and I turned my face away, he asked me why and I told him to go kiss his friend.. That was it.. he left and a while latter he texted me saying I’m childish and we argued, at the end I just told him we should forget it all  and talk in the next day…. And then he didn’t want me anymore. He didn’t make any attempt to talk to me or anything and sometimes he would do something cute like calling me ‘Angel’ but he would turn cold right afterwards! I asked him out and he said he would probably go, but in the day he ignored me and didn’t answer my text.. next day he said he was feeling sick. I asked him then if we were still a couple. He said he doesn’t like childish girls, that he prefers mature women and that we don’t match well but that he does likes being with me. I told him we could forget it all and try again or that we could forget it all and let it go…it was his choice because I wanted to try again. He didn’t answer. 

Do you thing I really am childish? Cause I can’t stop thinking about that and can’t stop crying cause I really liked him!

GODS, HUSBAND, YOU ANSWERED ME OMG! I MISS YOU SO MUCH! I CAN’T SEND YOU A EMAIL IT’S SAYING HERE THAT THE ADRESS DOES NOT EXIST! I MISS YOU!!

MERLIN, I’M SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF

I met this amazing guy through the internet a week ago, and we talked a lot,  he gave me his cell number so we send messages to each other every day the entire day and he’s really sweet but I screwed up!

Everyone knows I’m kinda slutish sometimes cause I love talking about sexy stuff and suddenly we were talking about it! He was a bit shy in the beginning which is so weird, MAN UP! Anyways, in the beginning he was shy but then as we kept talking he wasn’t anymore.. we didn’t say anything like.. I’m going to fuck you or wathever, but he said he wants me and I talked about amazing and delicious sex ideas and of course he liked it and I liked it too.. 

But now in the morning, I can’t stop feeling bad! Okay, he wants me, so when we meet for the first time, which I hope it doesn’t take long, he will think about sex but then he’ll realize what a fat cow I am ! And if he doesn’t while I’m dressed up, imagine when he actually tries to take my clothes off! He’s hot and sexy and works out and I… I stay home eating the entire day.. Urgh I’m so angry! I talked about sex, now he wants it, and I don’t want him to see my body. Now I have to work out and eat less. Yay. That’s great.

So, a guy named C likes me, and he asked my help cause his friend named A likes my best friend called R. I said I would help even though I get upset when that happens. You get tired after 6 years of guys wanting her and not you.. anyways! I added him on facebook and he ‘s HANDSOME, so I started talking to him as the good cupid I am but I couldn ‘t stop flirting and he was flirting back! He said I’m beautiful and he likes supernatural, we talked for hours non-stop and we only mentioned R once! I felt this amazing connection and I couldn’t feel bad for R cause she hooks up with models while I stay home in the internet reading drarrys! And A is really perfect and sweet but he wants her so I wonder if the connection was real! He said Im funny and nice and that he liked me and my personality but he still waants her. Like all the others. And I know I haven’t met him for a while but he neither met her or talked to her! So whats wrong with me? Why is always her? Is it because I try to hard? And in the end I told him ‘good night, dream of angels but not me cause I fell from the sky already ’ and he said ‘so you ‘re Castiel? ’ and I said ‘kind of’ and he answered ‘good night then, my angel
I WANT HIM!!!!!!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME!

The moment you realise you are a drarry fan :

When you see a hot guy and wish you were man and gay so you could lick that fine arse and fuck that hot thing…

The moment you realize you’re reading too much drarrys : when you look at a hot butt and wish you were man and gay to lick ta fucking hot thing

The moment

Ok I’ve changed, so WHAT?

What’s the big deal?? I fucking changed, I’m not the same person I was before and who fucking cares?? My 2 best girl friends stopped talking to me a while a go ans honestly? I had to much going around to try and be friends with them again! They didn’t even need me, they had each other and plenty of other whore friends! And they all are whores cause the entire fucking world knows that! I’m not making it up just because I’m upset… Then one of my male best friend stopped talking to me because we went to a party he wanted to fuck me and I went to a bathroom with someone else. I DIDN’T WANT HIM TO FUCK ME, OMG IS THAT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND?? And then what do they tell me?? You’ve changed, you’re not the same person anymore!! AND SO WHAT?????? I have plenty of other friends.. not really, maybe just 5 of other friends who… okay 3 other friends that knows everything I’ve done in my life even the sruff I did on the bathroom and they don’t hate me! They didn’t stop talking to me just because I’ve changed! They still like me and talk to me and we’re friends! So why do the others stopped so suddenly?? They are not my real friends, that’s the only explanation! And I don’t give a fuck, because I went there and I apologized for one of the girl friends! Guess what? She said ‘Too late, you’re not the same person anymore’ WELL FUCK YOU! I weren’t there when you needed me, but weren’t here when I needed you either! You never were because you liked your whore friends more than me! And maybe that’s why I went to that stupid bathroom with the other boy because maybe if I acted more like a whore you would like me more… BITCHES ALL OF THEM, I HAVE OTHER FRIENDS WHO CARE ABOUT ME NO MATTER WHAT. AND I HAVE ALL DRARRY FANS AND DRACO AND HARRY AND CHOCOLAT AND MY TEARS AND MY TEDDY BEAR. SO SUCK IT.